marriage - "the frank confessions of girl's countdown to her wedding day"

5 things She thinks about all day:

1. our apartment
2. my sister's arrival (it fills me with a sense of doom and gloom)
she's become a sharp tongued woman
who tells me things like stay with all of us for 15 days after your honeymoon
3. how would i look on my wedding day
4. will "the boy" jilt me at the altar?
5. and i keep thinking what would happen if my chacha (who is violent) breaks into a fistfight with someone we're inviting who he's warned us not to call


one thing you wud miss the most after u get married?
i'll miss my big room

something you are actually looking forward to?
driving The Boy's new honda city!!
actually i'm really looking forward to our time together alone
i really look forward to cooking for him


do you ever dream that your shaadi would not work out?
yes
i'll be because i'd be too adamant or too egoistic to see the simple truth


children?
i want 2
he wants one
we'll see

for Presley's sake

this post has been inspired (aka flicked) from one of my fav sites.

"Top Ten List: Why Elvis Will Replace Jesus"

10. His motto "Taking Care of Business" appeals to the power structure better than "Jesus Saves."
9. White jumpsuits are more practical than white robes in most parts of the world.
8. Elvis had better songs!
7. Elvis had sex!
6. Elvis approved of his followers having sex!
5. The Presley-Jackson Estate will probably own most of the world anyway.
4. JC's disciples drove camels; Elvis' disciples drove Caddies. Which would you rather be?
3. You don't have to starve yourself to emulate Elvis.
2. JC's followers learned "turn the other cheek." Elvis' followers learned karate.
1. You're still reading this.

hail, hail, hail to Thee....

too short to be my hero

this man could have been my hero would he have survived the worldly pleasures.
had the Prince been as brave and wise as the King, he would have my Hero in all true senses.

cheating

Cheating is defined as an act of lying, deception, fraud, trickery, imposture, or imposition. Cheating characteristically is employed to create an unfair advantage, usually in one's own interest, and often at the expense of others.^[1] Cheating implies the breaking of rules. The term "cheating" is less applicable to the breaking of laws, as illegal activities are referred to by specific legal terminology such as fraud or corruption. Cheating is a primordial economic act: getting more for less, often used when referring to marital infidelity.

right from the dictionary... it's meaningful, but it sucks!!!
i don't cheat... but i get cheated.... if i don't get cheated then i am scared that i might get cheated.
it cheats the hell out of me....

i am on my toes, right from checking the 0.00 while getting fuel filled in my car from scanning the change returned after paying the toll.

from the supermarket to the chaiwala... from a to z. every now and then.

please don't cheat me for the following 2 reasons:
1. i do not cheat.
2. it hurts my heart when you cheat me. it gets crushed like a flower under under your shoe.

loosing myself... horrendous

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my current state of mind... Wednesday, November 21, 2007 @ 1:32 AM

A thousand desires such as these
A thousand moments to set this night on fire
Reach out and you can touch them
You can touch them with your silences
You can reach them with your lust
Rivers mountains rain
Rain against a torrid hill’s cape
A thousand
A thousand desires such as these

hazaaron Khwaishein aisii ki har Khwaishein pe dam nikale
bahut nikale mere armaan lekin phir bhii kam nikale

I loved rain as a child
As a lost young man
Empty landscapes
Bleached by a tired sun
And then
And then suddenly it came
Like a dark unknown woman
Her eyes scorched my silences
Her body wrapped itself around me
Like a summer without end

nikalanaa Khuld se aadam kaa sunate aaye hain lekin
bahut beaabaruu hokar tere kuuche se hum nikale

Pause me, hold me, reach me
Where no man has gone
Crossing the seven seas
With the wings of fire
I fly towards nowhere
And you
Rivers mountains rain
Rain against a scorched landscape of pain

muhabbat mein nahiin hai farq jiine aur marne kaa
usii ko dekh kar jiite hain jis kaafir pe dam nikale

A thousand desires such as these
A thousand moments to set this night on fire
Reach out and you can touch them
You can touch them with your silences
You can reach them with your lust
Rivers mountains rain
Rain against the torrid hill’s cape
A thousand,
A thousand desires such as these

Khudaa ke vaaste pardaa na kaabe se uthaa zaalim
Kahiin aisaa na ho yaan bhii vahii kaafir sanam nikale
hazaaron Khvaahishen aisii ki har Khvaaish pe dam nikale
bahut nikale mere armaaN lekin phir bhii kam nikale

fall NiAgArA FALL!!!

i was whiling away my holiday today. looking at old pictures. there are a few below from my road trip to the Niagara Falls... did i miss out the word GREAT???
okay now.... Niagara sucks!!!
it's The place that no desi misses while in the United States. keeping the Tricolor high, even i did not.

i was there more for the drive. it was almost a 14 hour drive... crossing 5 states.
the roads were blissful.
i'd share some cherished pictures though...

The "Maid of the Mist" boat tour.
I passed through a Rainbow.

Another one...

Birdies from Canada on a rock.

My favorite Rainbow...

The 'Hard Rock Cafe'... to die for

The fall of the Fall...

again...

Brain Teaser: Can you count the number desis as against the firangs in the picture below?
That's Niagara baby...

my current state of mind

has nothing to do with money, cars or chiccies...
for a change i am not thinking. just lying in my bed and enjoying a winter morning.
it's a Tuesday and i am at home. no working. i didn't feel like working today. in fact i didn't feel like
getting up in the chill. it felt like good old days when i was in school.

its a warm blanket but i can still sense the cold wind seep in through gap under the door. i feel it on my hands, exposed out of the blanket.

with an open heart, i welcome the winters. the season of joy to me.
the delhi winters.